Life…it used to be so easy. It was just the two of us. We were worried about what bar we were going to go to that night…what new restaurant we were going to try. Should we take a fun trip? Maybe Sunday would consist of being hungover and binge-watching shows or maybe we would go in town and go bar crawling. Life was easy…too easy, the problem was we didn’t know it.
I find myself reminiscing sometimes about the life we used to live. It’s okay to crave that life you once had. It doesn’t mean I love my kids any less. GOD, no! They are my life, my world, my reason and I love being a mom! Honestly, I think it was what I was born to do. But it doesn’t mean I don’t crave a little bit of my old life. The old ME more specifically.
It can be hard adjusting to this new version of yourself! And don’t get me wrong- I LOVE this new version of myself. I’m older, wiser and don’t give a damn what people think of me. Which is a long way from high school when my every step was calculated by the pure fear that I wouldn’t fit in. Despite being a mom for almost 7 years, I’m always growing and I’m always changing, learning.
Sometimes I find the hardest part of parenting can be the balance. Balance of being the best parent you can be to your little humans all while not giving up what makes you, YOU. Am I spending too much time on myself? Not doing enough 1,2,3 and ABC’s? Am I losing myself because my life revolves around my kids?
My Advice? Not sure I should be allowed to give advice because half the time I don’t know if what I’m doing is even right! But don’t lose yourself; being you and doing what makes you happy is going to make you a better wife and parent in the end…
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